Aspergers... ODD Now you will know on a smaller scale!

Good Morning!!

Ok so have I told you about the show "Parenthood" that is on NBC. It is one of my favorites. This past week they had a scene with the child Max who has aspergers and he is sitting with his cousin eating lunch at school and the cousin decides to do something different and breaks the normal routine for Max.

I know I have told you about Samarra and how she gets sometimes when she just breaks out in a rage.. but right before it happens she repeats things. Like,, Samarra was suppose to go to the fair the first weekend with her nanna and something happened and they couldn't go.... I KNEW what was coming but I just went strait in... Samarra You guys are going to go the next weekend cause nanna and grandpa cant go this weekend.


And this is how it starts..... Yes we are going this weekend.......No honey they cant........We ARE going.. we have tickets and we are going...........yes you will go, but next weekend instead.........WE ARE GOING THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!.....No honey nanna cant go and we want to wait to go with them cause we only have so many tickets.....NO.. We will go this weekend cause we have to go this weekend cause that is the plan, YOU CANT JUST CHANGE PLANS!!!!!!! I am sorry honey, but we have to wait........YOU LIED!!! YOU LIED!!! YOU LIED!!!We are going .. we are going, we are going.

THEN........... The rage kicks in and things fly and her whole demeanor changes into this very violent ANGRY person.

Go to this link and you will see a small version of what I am talking about.... Keep in mind this is a TV show and in real life this can go on for 5 to 30 minutes or more!

Click on link and go to 29.50 closer to the end of the show just to see the part I am talking about. http://www.hulu.com/watch/285084/parenthood-clear-skies-from-here-on-out

Now when others watch this, cause I have asked, they look with some kind of shock and think is this for real???......When I watch it, I BAWL like a big baby, cause I know I am not the only one going through it.. and my heart pours out for the character MAX... cause in real life.. it is harder on the child, NOT the parent ... At least that is my opinion.

This is what I know... we have made progress and I will keep on doing what I need to do to help her.... I will not always be there and I am scared to death for her in later years!!!!!!!!

So last night Samarra was at her Awana group at church so on Wed. now I get alone time with the baby.........it is nice. So the night was smooth sailing, I actually got to OCD clean and it felt GREAT!!!

Samarra in her Awana Shirt= )

Oldies again lol

I hope you all have a great day!!!!!

Aspergers?? ODD... Did I slip into another demension?? Oct. 5, 2011

Happy Wednesday!!!

So this is probably the lamest thing ever.. Want to know why I am happy today???? My contractors and I are having lunch and having gyros..... LOLOL So it would be awesome if it was all about my contractors, but those of you who know me well enough, know i love me some food!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA Seriously .. that is kind of sad that that is a highlight of my day so far and in all honesty I been thinkin of it since Monday!! LOLOLOL LAME

OK, So me and my Sci-Fi loving self thinks i slipped into another dimension in time last night... Maybe like a reverse Twilight Zone cause there was NO drama........ Like I am looking back over the night and I don't think I would change a thing.

OR!!! It was so bad I have blocked it out...........hummmmmmmmm. Maybe I need to put up cameras in the house so I can see the next day lol

This is what I think I remember....No dinner issues, except she didn't eat......Oh well she wont die, but she also didn't go into a major rage either.......I got her in shower with out any issue......She played with the baby with out hurting her or us experiencing a near death moment......So now I am left in another moment of

WHAT HAPPENED???

I am not complaining, I did love how smooth things went........But it was a quite boring night..... lololol I am sitting here already worried about how tonight will be...I shouldn't do that.. I am sure my anxiety level increases through out the day cause on my way home I think.. I wonder what is going to happen tonight.... Will someone get hurt.. will she have a complete meltdown.. Well I guess you will find out tomorrow.. Same Time.. Same Bat channel... lol Why am I so goofy headed.

It is times like that that confuse me so bad.. what did I do different.. What is different in her head to make her different...... If i could bottle it up somehow I would be a millionaire!!!

A PERFECT name for the medication would be "Dimension." hahaha

So we started today out with a "Thank you mother for breakfast"......... I am scared.. I think she is buttering me up for the kill!!!!!!!! HELP!!!! Of course she had to tell me also that statistically kids with working mothers spend more time with their grandparents and that technically Mimi could be her mother giving the time she spends with my mom... lol She figured out she spends 3 hours a day during school and 11 hours a day in the summer so overall she spends 182 full 24 hours a day with mom a year and 183 full 24 hours days with me so I am just barely cutting it as her mother LOLOLOLOLOLOL There is that awesome IQ again....

I just love the talks she has with me letting me know my IQ is not as good and the things I do wrong as a parent lolol So I am not sure how long I will be in this strange demension I am in, but at least my blog is still in this one lolol

Here is a cute pic of Siahna in the bath last night.. she liked the bucket on her head lolol

The rest of these are OLDIES but goodies! = )

This is my grandma and her twin.. My grandma is on the left.. tell me that doesn't look like Siahna...  lol

Samarra with hair down like 2 years ago.....  her hair is so curly , at this point wet, it woulda been down her back all the way...

This is a glimps of the RARE occasion of Samarra with hair down.......NEVER AGAIN!!!  It took me 5 hours to brush this out!!

Peek-A-Boo

Have an awesome day!!!

Aspergers?? ODD...Like a lighning strike in the sky...It happened! Oct. 4, 2011

Good Tuesday to ya!

You ever have one of those moments where you just stop and say............ 

WHAT HAPPENED???

It was like a beautiful sunny day, soft fluffy clouds drifting by in the sky with birds chirping and the feeling of being kissed by the sun on your face..........All seems right.................AND THEN......... as your standing there a BOLT of lighting slams down right in front of you and you look around so confused and notice your standing in the darkest clouds you have seen and lighting crashing down all around you, all you want to do is get to safety.......... That kind of "WHAT HAPPENED" moment??

So we are playing a game last night.. Scrabble......not my fav......... but ok.......At least Samarra did not just spell death, dying, pain, torture... like she usually does. SOOOOOOO the game is done and I am so used to just jumping in and cleaning up games after we are done, but part of the NEW way of doing things and teaching her responsibility she had to pick up the game.....

And the lighting struck out of her eyes and the whole house seemed to just be covered in a dark cloud.

The game got flown across the room, she is screaming and crying and she looked like a crazy person out a killer movie that wanted to slash me to bits....I am not sure but I think it all went in slow motion as well.... Maybe we are all in a constant movie and it was the special effects kicking in to make the drama seem more enticing..............SHE WAS MAD!!! And for some reason this also had to do with a cookie???????? What is that???

What the... happened..........is this really that serious?

Now the baby is crying, which makes Samarra go nuts more............I want to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!! I am still in shock..........I don't get what happened. I took the baby to the other room for a diaper change.. and somehow in the middle of this.....

IT ALL STOPPED..........quiet.........not a sound was in my house.......I jumped up cause I thought maybe Samarra passed out and she is sitting on the couch and looks at me and says...Hi mom......... ONCE AGAIN........WHAT THE????? Did I just imagine what happened???

OH LORD JESUS.......Am I insane? I look and the game is put away......I actually questioned for a second.. Did time just go backwards.. Well I guess it is not to question......I think GOD SAVED ME!

Oh and did I mention the STAR chart got ripped of the wall and she just kept repeating.. just tell me i wont make it to 50...tell me...tell me...tell me.. I said no, I think you will make it.. JUST TELL ME!!!!!!!!

SOOO the night was almost to time to go to bed....... This night was jacked up and I don't even know what happened to prevent it next time!

WOW!!!

So on to another topic... MOTHRA is back! You might remember me mentioning me having to do aerobics to get out the front door and hoe NO BUENO it is with me having surgery ... WELL I am under full attack.. they called in the "Moth LORD" to overtake me......This thing got hit 2 times with a shoe and still flew off to come another day...It was in my house!..... Yes I have a picture!!!!!!! The body on this thing is the size of a Hot Wheel car or bigger...The wing span.. not sure!

Well I think I am still questioning last night if it happened at all... so all the rest seems like gravy so I will start my day= )

Oldies!!

Hope your day is awesome!

Aspergers?? ODD... PICS..pics... and more pics Oct. 3, 2011

Good Monday Morning !!

How did Monday get here so quick!!!!!!!!!!! Like I swear sometimes we go through a warp zone or something on days off. It is not fair........ I want my bed back!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolol


Ok so besides warping this weekend it was BUSY!!!!!!!

First the update to the NEW RULE chart and star system..(picture below)........It is still working GREAT........ She has 25 stars right now and only needs 25 more by Thursday!! She did loose a few over the weekend.. BUT I am making her take them away on first offenses.... She could have lost a few more during party cause she was acting out a bit because attention was diverted and she was trying to go crazy on me but overall working wonderful!

The rest of the weekend was...

Walmart... Which I love the NEW Neighborhood Market like 6 blocks from me.... and their carts that fit both girls perfectly! Yes I got a pic.. I am awesome!

Perfect basket!!!

And the highlight of the weekend!!!!!

SIAHNA my little chunk is 2 years old now!!!!!!!!!!

I know I could talk forever and ever, but pictures are more fun.. SOOOOO  as you wish.......the rest is pictures = )

Playing with a birthday toy= )

Practicing ballet Papa and Grannie got me.

Playin with birthday toy looking BORED!!  lolol

 

I am 2!!!

YUMMMYYYY!!!!

She almost got it and got caught  lolol

My Nana and Grandpa!

Loving cake too!

Jumping in my new inside jump toy!!!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Tryin to be cute.....  lol

Is it Groucho Marx????

Oh wait it's Samarra....  lol

OOOPS fell and folded in half... lol

BOO BOO

WAIT!!!  This one is not in a bag.. How do I open this????

MORE ...MORE...more

OMGosh.. I love the record player.. I had one just like it!!!  She loved it too!!!

I see you!

MY PUTER!!!!!

You don't want NONE!

NANNIE NANNIE.. you cant get in....

 Hope you enjoyed the pics...

Have an awesome day!!!!!