Aspergers?? ODD OMGosh.. I was rollin!! Oct. 14, 2011

T.G.I.F !!

and

It's PAYDAY!!

So I used my wimgo deal deal for the free pizza last night... Worked awesomely I should say.... Free....Dinner was ready so no dinner stress with Samarra......The night was set for success!

Check out the wimgo deals daily= ) 

I realize I just woke up and yesterday was but only about 7 hours ago.. BUT... I am drawing a blank yet again... lolol I think this is getting serious.lol We had a health fair at work yesterday and I walked past the Alzheimer table and I thought.. OH I think I have that.. got all the info on it just in case.. lolol I am told it it is selective memory for me= )

OH WAIT......... Something is coming back..... Ya, no therapist needed to retrieve this memory  lol

OH YEAH........Samarra lied about something at school yesterday!!!!!! NOT GOOD.....
BUT I was pretty happy to hear she lied to get out of something.... WHY WAS I HAPPY??? UMMMMMMMM cause all kids try that kind of lying, not the kind she had been doing that was kind of strange= ) So this is kind of a break through for us.. WOO HOO......She did get in trouble of course and I did not tell her I was happy she lied the right way lol Is there really a right way? hummm

ANYWAY......... I have a FUNNY story about Samarra this morning....

She is so smart, but yet she is a kid and when you mix those, it get hilarious.. but the thing is............She is serious, so you cant laugh... At least where she can see you= )

Samarra's history project was due today and she choose to be Pocahontas for her character. They had to dress up like the character and share all they know about them. WELL.. the teacher has a surprise coming.. OF COURSE Samarra knows everything about it and I am sure she will be up in front of class all day speaking lololol

Ok back to story.....

On our way to her school this morning I told her.. I am so glad you picked her cause you make a beautiful Indian princess!!!!!

Samarra says............ Yes I know... lol ...........That's my girl= )

Then the conversation continues...

Samarra: I wonder who I could ever get to be John Smith? (Pocahontas married John Smith)
Me: Thinking we are just talkin I say....Well I don't know.... you could probably get J.R. to be him...
Samarra: She starts laughing hard............MOM!!! That is just silly and WRONG!!
Me: I am thinking what the??? So I say.. What is so silly and wrong about it??

Samarra getting serious and using a voice that kind of makes a person feel stupid Samarra says..... UMM I would have to find someone that was like maybe 100 years old cause FIRST of all I don't even know if J.R. knows how to die.........and TWO he is only 7 MOM and he is too young to die........


LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

I thought i was going to loose it.. but I didnt and I said......... Well, I guess that is true, but you do know this is only characters right??? Samrra says UM yea mom and he dies...

I dropped her off and I had to laugh.... lol It is that kid thinking mixed with logical thinking......... classic!!


Well guys that is my bit for today and the weekend is almost there YAY!!!

Here are the pictures of my little Pocahontas and some of the baby waking up this morning who was being so loving= )

AWWWWWWWWW So pretty= )

I can be mean too!  lol

Siahna  confused on why her sister looks like an Indian   lolololol

Chillaxin

I love my sister for shoving  food and drink in my mouth the second I open my eyes in the morning= )

NO Mommia.. I wasn't in the cat food....  looking cute and guilty= )

Have an GREAT Friday!!!

Aspergers?? ODD...Killing me slowly with her mind.....Oct. 13, 2011

HAPPY HAPPY THURSDAY!!

I was thinking about a dance to go with the "Happy Happy Thursday," but no coffee yet........... means NO DANCE either....  Later I will... lol

So the baby decided to wake up at the crack yesterday so I did not get a chance to write..... lol But I NEEDED IT WAAAAA..

So I have to say the "STAR system" has introduced me to a whole new side of Samarra and I am not for sure but I think she is on a mission to KILL ME slowly with her mind.Or really kill me maybe.. She says..."Well you like zombies" maybe you will be one.. lolol WOW  lolololol  She is right I do like zombies  haha

Well of course the first week went well and she got her end of the week reward.........Well SHE decided and told me that she thought it was a smart idea for me to do the chart and it is one of the smarter things I have done..........WOW..... BUT she has decided that when she wants the reward which she doesn't really need all the time cause she will find a way to get it from daddy.......She is not going to do the star chart every week and this week she definitely decided to take a break.

SHE WENT THE OPPOSITE WAY! And she was having fun with it........She would actually do something she knows NOT to do with a huge grin on her face and when I would get on her, she would say .. nice try mom, I am not doing the chart this week.......

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OBVIOUSLY the meaning behind the chart is NOT there, I am only getting her to do things to yet get her way.....WOW...lololol....... I am sure the therapist will love that one. haha

She does this to sidetrack me and she even dragged me into some of her stupid debates on things where there is no real answer to give, but she knows she is right.. Like why is the sky blue type crap! BUT NO she doesn't ask why... she tells me why..........Maybe she is right.. I don't know.. remember I am the one with the lower IQ lololol OH and of course we always end up in some gross conversation of death somehow and i just get sucked in.. then I stop and think what the heck am I doing.. so of course I tell her at that point... I am not going to discuss this any more.. it is not appropriate and Im done.. then of course she has to argue back with more details trying to suck me back in... lolol.. she is a MESS!!!!


THIS CHILD IS MAKING ME INSANE!!!!!!!!!!.. but then what is new...........She is so a master manipulator!!!!! Which I HAVE to say.. I kinda think is cool to watch and see what she does, but I have to stop her... lol She is going to be like that movie "Catch Me If You Can".

So with all that said.. I think only two times did she actually get so MAD that her little scheme was not working to destroy a room and act a fool...lolol I am sorry But I have to say.. The way her face looks is SOOOOOOO funny sometimes.. I even cracked up one time she started having one of her rage fits...She got so pissed she started to throw something at me.. which of course i quit laughing immediately and looked at her and said..I HOPE YOU DO IT.!!!!........THAT is the one thing she DOES understand about me.......She KNOWS I hope she will, cause I will woop her butt!

The fits.. I just ignore them............ So most kids see that the rage and stuff gets them nothing so they usually stop doing it...........SEE that is what is different with Samarra.. She is NOT doing it to get her way.. she is doing it cause her emotions get so crazy and she cant handle them.... That is her way of dealing with it.. that is why when I just walk off and let her do what she needs it stops and she a completely different person for a while.. just as nice as can be, loving.. until emotions get high again...Same reason she laughs if you get hurt or sick.. the worse the more she laughs....

On a positive note, her teachers sister passed away yesterday and they told the kids and Samarra was all about it last night.. but when she went to bed she said in her prayer that she is hoping that her teachers sister is havin fun in heaven= ) kinda cute. Then the prayer gets over and she says to me.. You know I just said that cause I am supposed to say it? Right?.. Cause there is no way scientifically that a person could be out of our atmosphere, non liveable space.  UMMMM  YEA....OK...

Tell me.. what do you say to that??? HUM??? lolol

Here are my babies.. OH and a ghost!

This first one freaked me out.. I could have sworn I saw a ghost in my neighbors window!! The window on the right.. looks like a woman wearing a black V-neck shirt!!!

Ghost in window!!!

IMPORTANT Business!!

No, I was not about to do anything...

UMM She was a statue.......Why???  I don't know.. She was quiet and still.........LOVE IT!  lol

She does know she is cute.........And I know it too= )

Looks so tiny in my dead grass yard!  lol

As always smiling, and not fakin it= )

Have an awesome day!!!!!!!!!!!

Aspergers?? ODD... I am addicted and a wimp = ( ... Oct. 11, 2011

GOOD MORNING BLOG READERS!!!  lol

Once again Coffee is my friend and will be my BFF forever infinity! lol

First off.. I am SOOOOO bummed about the NBA NON-decision. = ( SIGH.. GREED is a deadly sin isn't it?

So I have managed to teach Samarra ONE thing that seems to be pretty consistent now... SOOOOOOO Why do I feel guilty?? I wake up and of course even if I breath, she jumps up and is ready to do jumping jacks, have long meaningless conversations, EAT, play games..........WELL we all know I MUST HAVE COFFEE!!! lol I am a morning person, but for like the first ten minutes I am the meanest person you ever met. DONT TALK TOP ME AT ALL!! Especially questions! I cant think.. I can barely walk, let alone do two things at once. I need all concentration on making it to the other room with out falling lololol

So Samarra has been waking up and walking up to me and just standing there looking at me.. which is annoying as well... But I finally say.. WHAT? .. And she says to me I just wanted to say good morning and I love you.... AAAAAAWWWWWW

Now why do I feel guilty??? Cause in my mind I am thinking .. that is SOOOOOOO not what she wants to say.. I know it isn't, she has learned how to get what she wants.. She wants FOOD and she wants it NOW! But then I think well maybe she does just want to say she loves me.. Then I feel guilty for even thinking different..........UGGG See why cant i just believe her= ( I guess cause she is my beautiful daughter and I know what makes her tick........... BUT WHAT IF I AM WRONG!! Well at least I do respond nicely and let her know I thought it was very sweet of her to tell me that, which I hope is reinforcing the habit= )

But almost ALWAYS once she checks to see if I will answer her.. she bugs me to death about food.. so it kind of confirms my earlier thoughts= ( BOO HOO!

The night was decent.. I was a WIMP..... I caved in dealing with responsibilities and got McDonald's chicken nuggets for dinner... At ll.east I was wise enough to only get apples with it and then give them some green beans.......So overall not too horrible, but I KNEW Samarra would be happy with it....AND I wouldn't have to deal with the dinner issues.........I walk in moms house... Samarra runs up.... Whats for dinner, is it ready...........I say yes......She walks out the door and I know she is happy for a while now.... I WANT TO HEAR HER SAY HI MOM!!! Oh well= )

So now to my addiction!! I am an addict to thinking about food!!! What the heck is that????? So yes, I have lost my mind, and you will agree as soon as I tell you this...........lol BIG DEEP BREATH..........OK, So I think about food a lot and I don't know why.....I hear a song and depending on the song it makes me think of different food.. I heard some kind of music up here at work that reminded me of India food, then I was sure I was having Mexican for dinner a little later..... then I wanted Del Rancho. I even went as far as to look up the menu and decide what the family would want and i was going to call it in.......... NOW here is the thing.. I NEVER get the food! I would NEVER eat so much bad food.. blah... Here is what I do though........I have favorite foods and I always revert back to them.

So now I wonder why Samarra has foods she will only eat.. I did not think i was obvious, but I think she has gotten it from me.. and she thinks about food A LOT!!!!!

I am breeding food thought addicts...He-he......I wonder if I am the only one??? lololololol

So thanks to this blog of mine I think more about what I do and the more I write the more i realize..................I AM CRAZY! LOLOLOLOL So thank you to all who suggested I write a blog to help me. ha-ha

One last thought for the day............How is it that my child.. or all children, I don't know can turn any toy into a weapon? And why? Something to ponder= )


Want to freak someone out??? Walk around with a smile all day= )

Sorry no new pictures= ( I was chillaxin with my babies= )

I was looking through photos with them and came across her graduation pics from kindergarten when she was barely 4 years old= )... awwwwwwww 

Samarra and my sub-human= ) Jalaine.

Have a great TUEASDAY!!!

Aspergers?? ODD....So TIRED = MEAN?? I dont find this in the dictionary. Oct. 10, 2011

Happy Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE COFFEE !!!!!

Seriously about 30 minutes ago I wanted to pass out.. I was walking into walls on my way to the kitchen......I have this serious issue about my balance when I first wake up... I am sure I look 100% drunk!!! So I made it to the kitchen, got me some strong coffee and I feel Great now!!! For a little bit anyway lol

So this weekend was pretty good.. Had the big OU vs. Texas party at the house. I had pulled pork, Cheese dip with sausage, hot wings, and hot dogs.. then all the fixin's and sides....... I WAS BUSY!!!

Samarra was SSOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited which she always gets like that when people will be over. The problem is NOT before the party, or during the party.. It all comes AFTER the party.

Everyone was gone by like 5:30 or so and I am not sure but I believe the rest of the waking moments over the weekend we had some kind of issues. Samarra LOVES people.............TOOOOOOO MUCH!! I kept having to tell her to get away from some people.. If you haven't read it before, Samarra is INTRUSIVE into other peoples bubbles to the point i have to push her back sometimes..

I KNOW........ I feel so bad after, but seriously I get to a panic moment when she is all in my face and I cant breath well.......I have TRIED to teach her otherwise... It is kind of embarrassing too.. Yes I know SHOULD I BE THINKING OF ME???

WELL HECK YES.. this is my blog dang-it and I will write about me too lolol EMBARRASSING!!!

She cried A LOT the rest of the weekend.. Saying things like she missed people......... like she had just known them forever and they go way back.....For some reason she carries this HUGE emotional dark cloud after major events like that.... I wonder what that is???

Well the tired part doesn't help... quite a few times on Sunday I got so mad that i just got quiet.. I didn't know what else to do??? She had about OHHHHHH 6 or 7 moments where she would just go into a complete rage for the tiniest things ever..........

LIKE

-Not getting 15 chips, she only got 12.
-She forgot to get the toilet paper before she went to the restroom.
-Siahna got to slide down twice while she walked out of room.
-I was not quick enough with breakfast.
-I wouldn't let her play in the water out in the cold.
-OH !! She wanted to walk down the street alone?????? WHAT THE???
-OH!! OH!!! Why she couldn't eat a whole hotdog at one time.

Anyway it was DUMB AND STUPID!!!!!!

And If I even tried to explain anything , I got PISSED!!! Cause she would turn it into a manipulation conversation and i just simply said.

I WILL NOT discuss this further... you are trying to manipulate me and I refuse to let you and walk off.........


THEN she would get so mad that it just went from there... stuff flying.. I even got a "I hate you" out of her lolol GOOD thing my skin is thick and I know she loves me= )

So when she got done.. I made her clean up, which she did fine actually... WEIRD.. but then ON to the next one. She was very down on herself during all of this....

Saying things like....
-Just kill me now.
-Go ahead ground me for my life so no one has to look at me...
-I am a horrible person.
-I cant do anything right ever, I am worthless...

But SEE that yet is another way for her to control a situation.... I melt down and feel sympathy and she doesn't have to follow the rules....

WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO BE SO SMART??? But Why is she like this at ALL?? SIGH.. Only God knows... and he knows best... So guess what.. it sucked, but I am smiling and it isn't fake= ) And I will miss being with my girls all during the work week... SEE I AM WEIRD!!

Here are some photos from this weekend= )

Mommia ans Siahna....

YUP.....I like food ... AND???

I LOVE OU TOO!!!!!!!!

PLEASE?????  Didn't I eat enough for ice cream???

Me and my beauties= ) Looking fuzzy... lol

HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!