Diary of an Asperger's Mom: Aspergers?? ODD... My normal is your nightmare! Sept. 14, 2011

HELLO World!!

I feel like i am in another realm of existence today.............WEIRD!! This weather is making me feel like a different person.. and I think happier!!!!!!! So the question is....Did I transfer to another dimension or am I in the same one and it is getting better??? All I have to say is .............if i did tele-port to another dimension.. I am pissed cause I would think at leas tone of them I am RICH!!! OK, I watch WAY TOO MUCH Sci-Fi TV!!!!! lolol

Why do I not think of cooking and shopping and dinner parties and stuff like other moms do.. at least I think they do.. Why am I so weird lol Maybe everyone does it... I just DONT CARED AT ALL if people know I am weird.. take me or leave me...........preferably leave if you only want something from me lolol That is too much stress!! LOLOLOLOLOL

I AM SOOOOOO MAD!!!!!!!!! So for the last two nights i have been dreaming about great things.. the first I won 10,000 at a casino, but in my dream I needed to go to ladies room.. I kept looking and couldn't find it!! To the point of me hurting and I woke up.. guess what.. I had to go to the restroom.... dang-it and I hadn't even cashed in my ticket yet!!!!!!!!!!!!! Second one I was eating a yummy meal in Florida and I had to once again visit the ladies room.... I couldn't find it.. woke up and YUP had to use the restroom.......... I didn't even get to finish my meal and go to the beach!!!!!!!!!!!! I am NOT happy about this at all............ So no more liquids for me before bed!!!!!!!!!!! lolololol I am like a kid or something. lolol

So I don't know if it is the weather making me happier or what but last night i was just going along easy peasy fabreezy......nothing seemed to bother me..........OH yea we had a meltdown over the fact that I don't cook like mimi does and she was NOT going to eat the food cause it was not right.. and she ALWAYS has her eggs cooked a certain way and that is not it, so she is not eating it........... OK fine, I ate them lol and they were great if i may say so..lolol I am mean and wasn't really caring at the moment...lolol.....And the fact I wouldn't go get Mimi, who is sick by the way, to make her her eggs was not acceptable........I am like get over it..........She is screeching into her pillow kicking......Nope didn't bother me..........lol I will have a good night and not walk on egg shells!!!! I actually sit at work during the day thinking how the night will be.. that sucks!

Then lets see, apparently she is tired of living in a world of ignorance.......Ya know what.........I told her, you may have the smarts girl but you will never be truly smart until you have lived real life.. and I have done a lot more of that than you.....YEA ok, it made me feel good, but she had no clue. lol She says. that does not make sense mom. OH YEA it is a literal thought or something she can touch.. my bad...

The teacher says the clapping and screeching is happening at school as well. I wonder what it is?? Probably 20 times last night she did one or the other.......IT CAN STOP NOW.........Ok, so you know I would never hit my daughter, but I PROMISE when she does it, it goes strait to the mad, anger part of my brain and makes me want to react with violence!!!!! She could be the next military weapon to control fighters... lolol OOPS a little sci-fi coming out again lolol

Funny the teacher told me yesterday that sometimes Samarra makes a lesson plan in before care at school and gives it to her when she gets in class...The teacher says she has to thank Samarra for helping but for her to remember SHE is the teacher not Samarra... lolol Taking over the world lololol I told the teacher, yes she likes to be in control.. Teacher says.. YES SHE DOES!!! Thats my little leader.. just dont try and lead me... !!

So my last thought for now... Siahna has these baby videos that she watches and I am not sure but I think they may have subliminal messages in them!!!!!!!! Remember back in the 80's and 90's when people were scared of subliminal messages lololol OK, anyway.. I am telling you these things are either a God-send or well the other.. lol She watches these things over and over and never tires of it.. She will sit and stare.. go to kitchen and be looking back.. stand in front of it.. It is like no matter where she goes her eyes are on the TV watching this DVD of babies.... I took pics last night to show you .. she doesn't even acknowledge me taking the photo lololol

Here are some pics from yesterday= )