Aspergers Mommy

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Well I am a mom of two wonderful kids that I have been blessed with!!! I am not a psychiatrist, or a doctor so anything I say is not the answer to all, it might not even be the right thing for me!! lol I do my best with who and what I have to overcome any challenge with lots and lots of prayer,my mom who is God given just to me for this very reason, my sisters, and friends! I love life, mostly positive........BUT I am insane at times, get to the point of wanting to explode! lol.. I sing kids songs way too much! Did I mention I am OCD when it comes to cleaning. Which believe it or not I think is what keeps me sane. When I clean, I love it. Breakdowns, crying, talking, just all seem to be ok as I clean..Thank God for OCD!!!

Monday, July 16, 2012

Aspergers, ODD, ....Should I feel kind of bad??? July16, 2012

Well.........................
Happy Monday!!!


Bet you never heard a "happy" before Monday  lolol

Well I am a "looser" lolol I did not post on Friday, But think of it this way, you get to have my words TWICE this week!!!   YEA YOU!!!   LOLOL

OK, so here is my explanation to why.. Last week was Bible school for Samarra, so every night I got home, mom sent her out, I drove her to Bible school and she got home about 8:45 and then i put the baby right to bed and the very first night we set up a routine of Samarra gets a snack and she brushes her teeth, then mom goes and gets in bed and I watch TV till i pass out.....


SOOOOOOOOOO Basically I did not see her all week!  How could anything go wrong???  lolol

Then her Nanna came and got the girls Friday morning and kept them till Siahna's nap and then took Samarra back home with her for the night....


THEN

She came home at 10 on Saturday and a friend more like my "Sista from anotha mista"  lolol  Anyway.... and my God daughter Joclyn came to visit and we all went to eat at Chedders. We then went to my dad's house for their garage sell and the girls got to pick out something they wanted to have....

Then again...

We went home and My sister Debbi picked Samarra up to spend the night. Got up on Sunday.. went to church where i got Samarra and came home and got stuff together to go to my great niece's B-day party at 2 p.m.  We stayed there till a bit after 4 p.m. then went to car wash and home by 4:30p.m.

Then i started getting stuff together for the next day.. dinner and baths and such and then it happened.

Samarra says......What are we going to do now?? 
ME: What do you mean
Samarra: I have been doing stuff every night about this time, so what are we going to do?
Me: Well, I am makin dinner and going to get the stuff ready for the week, what are you going to do.
Samarra: NO, you have to do something with me.
Me: Do you want to do what I am doing??
Samarra: NO, That is your job as a mother!
Me: Ok, so what is your job as a daughter?
Samarra: I need to be doing something
Me: So do something
Samarra: (Mad as all heck now)
Me: Samarra, just cause you have been doing stuff all over, does not mean you have to do it over and over every night.. that was special.
Samarra: now she is just mad.. On couch of course.. crying... blanket over head, kicking and screaming things like i need something to do.. you NEVER do what i need to do..

AHHHHHHHHH the sweet sound of chaos is back....................Life is normal.. life is happy....

LOLOL... Siahna says to her, not getting close to her... Sissy.. you done yet??

Samarra goes on for a while and as always light goes off and now all is happy in the Lindauer house hold.. I even got an I love you mom... = )  CHEEEZE


So should i feel bad or guilty that this week was great for me??? Is that not kind of like me saying I like it better when she is not around??  Cause I am telling you, that is NOT true!!!  I was all kinds of emotional this week not seeing her much.. I even got teary eyed once..........Sure it was cause i was thinking how peaceful it was with her gone and how guilty i felt and how i must be a horrible mother to think that.. but HEY i cried dangit!  lololol   Whatever.. I love her and i miss her, but she likes to be a busy bee so let her i guess....

SOOO the moral to this week is.. we do awesome when we are not together  lololol   ..... NOOOOOO.........I am kidding, but when she is busy busy busy.. she has no time to think about other things........ BUT sorry to say, that is not reality so we are back to normal this week.

WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!


Here is quite a few pics of the week, yes, most are Siahna, but she was the only one home almost!!!

lol The slide is bigger than the little pool  lolol  can you say GHETTO!!!  But FUN  lol


AWWWW my babies!!



That face can get her anything .. ALMOST  lolol

Chillaxin in da pool

KISSES!!

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 Have a great week!!!

2 comments:

  1. she is sooooooo sweet baby and very pretty,lovly pictures


    thanx!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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