Yes it is FRIDAY!!!
OK... Here is a question to all of you out there.......Do you ever stand there and feel like your brain has leaked out of your head and you can think of absolutely nothing but gibberish, or look at a situation and think.. I have absolutely no thought on that????? WELL............I have and I still am thinking that.....The mental picture of that happening is quite gross.. lol
That is how this week has been.............I can not for the life of me figure out why EVERY NIGHT this week Samarra has had a major meltdown!!!!!!!!!!!! I am to the point it is pissing me off! Not at her, just the whole situation!!!! And me! I don't know what caused it, I don't know why it is not stopping, and I don't know how to fix it!!!!!
So here how it goes....................crying first..............me asking what is wrong..........
Samarra: I am scared
Me: OF??
Samarra: I wont be able to sleep tonight............
Me: OK, and why does that scare you?
AND IT IS ON LIKE DONKEY KONG!!!!!!!!
OK, don't think I am stupid enough for the SAME scenario to happen, I try to do positive things and tell her how awesome she did the night before........I try to find anything and everything to make her happy even getting glow sticks for her to take with her......Of course the TV is on preachin..........one night she THOUGHT she might want the shopping channel, but just couldn't do it cause yes it is not her routine which make it so worse!!!!!!!!
I have tried EVERYTHING I KNOW!!!!!!!!!
She is screaming!!!!!!!..............KICKING!!!!!!!!!!.............. Yelling like someone is seriously torturing her... saying MOM!!!!!!!!!! Don't leave me.........help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant do this!!!!!!!!!!! hyperventilating...................mad and throwing things. This goes on for a good while! Never know how long! All I know is mentally I am WORE PLUM OUT!!!! Yes Yes, i realize she is too.. but dangit i need some empathy too!!!!!!!! lololol But here is the thing.. I CAN'T GIVE IN!!!!! It will make it so much worse!!! So what do I do!!!!!!!!!
You know it just hit me, I wonder if something about us having her birthday party last weekend at the house did it??? We did have a "stanger" Magician over along with like 30 or so people............All this mess started after that...................hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................You know I should be thankful she is able to communicate with me most of the time.............The spectrum is a difficult thing and easily she could be more on the side of non communication! So THANK GOD FOR THAT!!!
ANYWAY I AM LOST!!!!!!!!
OK forget that.. it is what it is until it is not.. lolol
So the birthday party was fun, all the kids had a blast and I did too.. I found myself mouth dropped a few times thinkin.. how he do that lol You ever watch someone sleep and like their mouth is all open and they look funny.. I think that is kinda what I looked like lolol
The cupcake stand instead of a cake worked out well also.. the kids loved they got to choose different kinds!!! And of course I got Samarra a chocolate cake with no icing........... she loved it...= )
After that Samarra had her friend/sister from another mister lololol Stay the night.. Rhi Rhi.... they are so cute together.. they both have some spectrum social skills to improve on.. and they just fit perfect..........They even tried to make up a secret sister hand shake.. AWWWWW
Then the next night was off to my sisters house.. So it was just me and the baby.............
OK, all those out there with a very active two year old! As you know I don't sit down, in my house that means something bad is going to happen, but I think.. Samarra is not home.. I can sit down for a minute..........
Well the first time i was in there for maybe 10 minutes.. I had forgotten how AWESOME it felt to just sit down and watch a grown up show!!!!!!!!!! I think it was Man vs. Food lolol Anyway, Siahna comes walking in and she is trying to hide her right leg.. NO WAY.. she had taken 3 markers and colored her leg up real pretty!!!!!! Not with washable markers either lololol I laughed and said what did you do Siahna?? She says it is pretty mommy.. lololol I said yes it is and laughed and hugged her.. lololol
So little later on, I had so much fun earlier I sat down again...........This time I am not sure how long it was but all of a sudden i panicked..........IT IS TOO QUIET!!!!!!!!!! I jumped up and ran into living room where Siahna with no pants on, no panties on just a shirt is sitting very quietly watching NickJR eating a cupcake.....
WHEW!!!!!!!!!
Wait.. where did she get a cup cake??? I go in kitchen and look at the cabinet where they WERE.. they are now on the chair at the table that she crawled up to get................. I could have sworn there were a LOT more in that box!!!!!
I look at Siahna and say........Siahna what are you eating?? She looks at me with this big ol grin and says.. I like cupcakes!!!! I am laughing now.. and I said How many did you eat???? She held up her hand with four fingers and said FOUR and she named all the different colors off.. lol in reality my 53 lb 2 year old ate SIX cupcakes!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG I felt like i was being an abusive parent!!!!!!!!!!! But it was so cute and so funny!!!!!!!!! Icing on her face just strait chillin like a villain on the couch!!!!!!!! lololol
Moral of the story................MOMMIE DOES NOT SIT DOWN!!! How dare I!!! LOLOL>L
Ok, I have to be done, I been up since 3 this morning and i have got to get ready! I hate wakin up early!!!!!! I am going to be tired when i get home.. Just in time for our Friday fight with Samarra............ugggg I dread it!!!!!! BOOOOOOOOOOOO
So here is a bunch of pic from this week..= )
PS. I am adding this in.. it is now 11a.m. and I DID NOT eat a donut lolol
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| Party decorations |
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| Cup cake stand... |
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| John the Magician!! |
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| Samarra helping with a dove trick= ) |
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| I like this hat!!! lol |
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| Sportin a balloon hat too!! = ) |
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| YUP she created ART on her leg lol |
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| me... lol |
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| me again, in case you needed to know.. lol |
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| YES!!! She has SOME clothes on lol last night Samarra wouldn't give her a drink or her drink so Siahna went to the wall and slid down and said I am sad.. LOLOLOLOL |
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| She is sooooooo cute!!! One of her MANY sunglasses!! |
Have an AWESOME WEEK!!!
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