Aspergers Mommy

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Well I am a mom of two wonderful kids that I have been blessed with!!! I am not a psychiatrist, or a doctor so anything I say is not the answer to all, it might not even be the right thing for me!! lol I do my best with who and what I have to overcome any challenge with lots and lots of prayer,my mom who is God given just to me for this very reason, my sisters, and friends! I love life, mostly positive........BUT I am insane at times, get to the point of wanting to explode! lol.. I sing kids songs way too much! Did I mention I am OCD when it comes to cleaning. Which believe it or not I think is what keeps me sane. When I clean, I love it. Breakdowns, crying, talking, just all seem to be ok as I clean..Thank God for OCD!!!

Friday, February 10, 2012

Aspergers...ODD.... Dont freak out when you see it! Feb.10, 2012

Happy Happy Friday!!!!!!

 I think it is so funny that every time I come in here to write on Friday which seems to be the norm now, I think of the saying from the movie "Friday" and I crack myself up........  It is like my own little crack up session, which I think makes me a little crazy..lololol

And the quote from the movie is: I'm gonna get you high today Craig... It's Friday......You aint got no job.......You aint got Sh*t to do!!!!!!    LOLOLOLOLOL  ...........Ok, so maybe it is only funny to me  lolol  (By the way, I don't say that word really). (Sorry mom and dad) = )

So this week flew by me like I was in a time warp!!!!!!!!!!  I am so geeky I kinda wished I could like on Star Trek.. LOVE IT!!!  It is so busy at the job this time of year, I loose time I think!!  If it was not for Margaret remembering things for me, I think I would forget everything!!!!!! Thanks Margaret!!! She is an awesome worker!!! = )

Things on the home front got better this week because Samarra decided the "star system" was back in play.... She was bound and determined to get to 50 stars to get McDonalds breakfast and take it to school.

Well............ SHE DID IT!!!!!  YEA!!!!!!!!

 So now comes the "Don't freak out" part..........So you know how I have told you that Samarra is extreme in all emotions........I NOW HAVE PROOF of one..........I have a video for you to watch, I recorded two of them, but watching the long one, even gets to me again so I am going to show you the short one and I already know your first question.........AND the answer is ... Yes, she is happy even though she looks like it may be something else...

So to set the scene............I just told her she got her 50th star and I would take her to McDonalds the next morning.... OK, here we go bad mommy confession time..........I have to admit this video bothers me in that I get kind of embarrassed= (    Even though I know she is happy, you can even hear Siahna laugh at her at the end of it.........But just for me to put it out there and others see how kind of "weird" it is.. makes me a little uncomfortable..........  ok......

Well what ya think????  NOW.................imagine that kind of response to anger, but add throwing, hitting, death threats or bodily harm to it and make it last anywhere from 5 to 20 min.....

So needless to say part of the week was great!!!

And then she got 50 stars and promptly decided to do NOTHING and the last couple days been World War III all over again...........I was totally not expecting it! Although I should have I suppose cause it was the same last time too.

But I was so unprepared........I didn't have my battle gear or brain on. So lets say I have been CRANKY.........I have snapped more times than usual.. I am like snap.. crackle... and pop.. all in one!!!!!!! LOLOL

Anyway, needless to say I am TIRED!!!!!!!!!!! And I am not ready for the after work Friday routine!!!!!!!!!! I should just give in and go out to eat with her so I dont have to have the "argument" or the crying, or the hate speech.....But then maybe it wont happen.. LETS ALL THINK POSITIVE....

Why I let myself get negative at times just amazes me...... I have a house.... I have food.........I have a job......... I have family........I have friends........What the heck is my problem?????? OK, back on track......... Thank you self, you are just what I needed.... lololol OK, maybe the talking to myself is a problem lololol

OH well.......You know I started the blog not thinking it would change my life at home, but help me see me in writing so I could vent a little and it does its job, so I will be back, hopefully more next week with the exciting life of an insane aspie mom= ) I really don't minding be seen as insane though honestly.. I never did like the go with the flow person... I think that is why Jalaine and I fit so well.....She is way off the grid and I am at times too! Somehow together we stay stable.......lolol one person in two....Hey maybe she got the memory part of me and I got the thinking twice before shooting part... lololol Love you Jalaine  = )

Here are some memories from this week= )

WHEW... my chunk is almost big as sissy!!!

She knows she is cute = )  Samarra doesn't like Siahna screams.. lol

 Have a super awesome insane day!!!!

1 comment:

  1. If you think before you shoot, they have time to think to move Darla...... hahhahahah Mr Bojingles says hello.