Aspergers Mommy

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Well I am a mom of two wonderful kids that I have been blessed with!!! I am not a psychiatrist, or a doctor so anything I say is not the answer to all, it might not even be the right thing for me!! lol I do my best with who and what I have to overcome any challenge with lots and lots of prayer,my mom who is God given just to me for this very reason, my sisters, and friends! I love life, mostly positive........BUT I am insane at times, get to the point of wanting to explode! lol.. I sing kids songs way too much! Did I mention I am OCD when it comes to cleaning. Which believe it or not I think is what keeps me sane. When I clean, I love it. Breakdowns, crying, talking, just all seem to be ok as I clean..Thank God for OCD!!!

Friday, February 3, 2012

Apergers>> ODD.....You are the best preserved!!!! LOLOLOL......AWWW Feb. 3, 2012

And Yet AGAIN... It's FRIDAY!!!

How in the HECK did a week fly by in front of me??? OH yes, I remember that I tried to forget it and I musta did a good job... lololol

Happy Birthday to me!!!  

Yup, i am one year older now.... I am not really into this getting older thing, as I am sure no one is unless it is a child under 21.. lol But I guess it is going to happen anyway..........soooooooo ..........OK bring it on... I will fight you with wrinkle cream, exfoliating and my all time favorite thing in the world that is not alive.......Cocoa butter!!!!!!! I love that stuff!!!!!

So a little catch up.....Went to the therapist this week and I have to say again she is so AWESOME!!!! I guess that is why she gets paid the big bucks!!! But I think I have told you that my insurance does NOT except that Samarra has anything wrong with her ............. 

Because you know autism and oppositional defiant disorder and such are ALL IN OUR MINDS YOU KNOW. Us parents just dream up issues for our kids so they can be miserable.....

ANYWAY......... She just loved Samarra so much and she thinks she is so smart and wanted to keep seeing her that she is letting us come for a VERY VERY discount rate and they don't even try to file insurance!

So the whole inappropriate kissing me thing.. I think is a thing of the past.. NOT one time since our visit... The doctor was so awesome in including Samarra in talking about it and yes some of it was VERY uncomfortable for Samarra that she fought back a bit with the leg kicking hands over the ears and trying to block us out but it worked!!!!!! She approaches Samarra as a child but a very intelligent one. And the conversation started with Samarra coming up with three things adults do that kids cant.....She says put stuff in the oven..... Go to work..........cross the street alone......... then went into that we see things on TV that are not real.. then we read this book that was about space and strangers and private things.. not just private parts. It was a huge success...

The therapist knows when she gets up and leaves the room for a minute that Samarra always comes to me and kisses me.. so she got up and left to see what Samarra would do.. She got up came to kiss me and went to kiss my neck and stopped and said... I almost did it again didn't I?? I said but you didn't.. and i am so proud of you!!!

On the home front well we are getting there.........Only one major issue this week and it was a big one, but the saying it gets worse before it gets better is true....

SOOOOOOOO do you want to know what caused it???  

How could I have ever been such a horrible mother!!!!!! And of course I did it on purpose!

She accidentally slept until 6:08 one morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMGosh breath ... yes I know this is sooooooooo horrible.. How could I have ever let such a thing happen to my sweet little child!!!!!!!!!!!! LOLOLOLOLOLOL

OK, I ma me it is nothing, to her it was everything a the time....But I just don't see how that can lead to the kicking and pure hatred and anger and food flying across the room and bodily harm threats...... sigh... Well as usual i just let it be...... and once she deals with whatever it is in her head she is dealing with goes away I knew things would be fine.....

And it was.... bout 20 min later she walked in talking about something completely unrelated and happy....... ?????????? Nope still cant explain it.....

You know when I was growing up and had questions about God, I was always told... You know there are just some things we will never truly know until we can ask him ourselves.... WELL I think autism and ODD and all those things are the same.. we will just never know..........Just learn how to deal and move on....... So that is what I do.. why sit back and question...... Cause that is when my mind starts to wonder to far and before I know it I am questioning me.............. thinking about burritos,............. thinking about work, ................thinking about her in the Siahna............something really random.........something really VERY weird......Siahna............. LOLOLOL  

Yes my mind really does work like that ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!

I actually sleep with the TV on but no sound just the closed caption so i read it.. then I don't think and I fall asleep quick lololol Ok, I admit, she probably gets all of it from me.. = ( lolol

OK, I have to finish getting ready for work.. but Samarra says the funniest things and this I had to share since it is my birthday and it was related...

Samarra - It's your birthday tomorrow.
Me - Yes it is
Samarra - I wonder how you will feel tomorrow knowing your a year older and not any smarter....
(LOLOL You have to laugh.. she doesn't mean it as a put down.. she simply is stating a fact).
Me - Well I did learn some things this year honey.
Samarra - What??
Me - I learned that your crazy!
Samarra - Mother, I might act crazy, but it is only to fit in with all of y'all!

LOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!! That is AWESOME I don't care who you are that is some of the finniest stuff I have heard....!!!!!!!!!

OK second.... AWWWWWWWW
Samarra - Well even though your not smarter, I look around and I think you are one of the best preserved moms I know.
Me - Preserved??
Samarra - Yeah your pretty..

LOLOLOL WOO HOO I got a compliment!!!!

My Birthday picture= )

My girls playing together!!!!!!!!!!!!   lolol


1 comment:

  1. 8 minutes Darla, you know that would screw up my whole day too! Im going to live with Samarra when I am old, but cause she will understand my schedule. We will also be able to have great conversations about my being old and dying. Hopefully she will be a doctor and can figure out how to turn me into a Zombie!! I love that kid.