Aspergers Mommy

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Well I am a mom of two wonderful kids that I have been blessed with!!! I am not a psychiatrist, or a doctor so anything I say is not the answer to all, it might not even be the right thing for me!! lol I do my best with who and what I have to overcome any challenge with lots and lots of prayer,my mom who is God given just to me for this very reason, my sisters, and friends! I love life, mostly positive........BUT I am insane at times, get to the point of wanting to explode! lol.. I sing kids songs way too much! Did I mention I am OCD when it comes to cleaning. Which believe it or not I think is what keeps me sane. When I clean, I love it. Breakdowns, crying, talking, just all seem to be ok as I clean..Thank God for OCD!!!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Aspergers...ODD... OMGosh I missed you blog!! Dec. 2, 2011

Happy Friday!!

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOO glad it is the weekend!!!!

OK, So this week has been UGGGGGGGGGGGG. So I wrote on Monday I think.. And since then, i have had to take the baby to the hospital for a fall, Samarra has had two MASSIVE MASSIVE meltdowns, I had SIX and i will repeat SIX shots in my back, The house alarm decided to go nuts in the middle of the night and I have been BUSY!!!!

So my insides feel kinda like mush being held together by adrenaline and electrical current!!!!!!!

I have a twitch in my eye, my leg is twitching, I am wired like no other, hands shaking and everything is fine right now. CRAZY!! Maybe it is the start of ZOMBIEISM!!!!!!! Thank God my sub-human likes zombies, she can keep me in her basement as a pet lolol Love ya Jaline!! OMGosh and she told me the funniest story last night BHAAAAA!!!!!!!!! She goes to a new wave tanning salon with a bed that scans you to make sure you don't burn.. They forgot to tell her it sprays water at her while she is in it!!!!!!!!!!!! LOLOLOLOLOLOL I SOOOOO wished that was on video.. minus the no clothing thing lolololol I was ROLLIN!

OK, so anyway... Jus tlike all babies, Siahna fell and just happen to meet the door jam to her room with her head..........this thing grew the zice of a chicken egg like in 2.2 seconds and it was dark purple instantly...... I stayed calm but freakin on the inside......And THEN Samarra went into a meltdown!!!!!! She is screaming as loud as she can into a blanket.

SHE IS GOING TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She repeats this over and over as she is wailing about and I try to tell her she is not going to die and she gets mean sounding and saying YES SHE IS!!!!!!!!!! CALL MIMI So she can say goodbye to her!!!!!!! 

Can you tell she DOES NOT handle emotional things well???

I am trying to put an ice pack on her head and calm Siahna and Samarra is out of control.. I really tried not to call mom this time, but I had to.........So mom comes over and Samarra is still screaming.......I lost time at this point I am not sure when Siahna stopped crying but Samarra did not, but I knew I HAD to get Siahna checked or I was not going to be able to let her sleep....So mom and I went and Samarra stayed with her dad......... Well this all started about 6:30........I call to check on Samarra at 8:15 and she is still crying and freakin out........ Well we got done and home by 9:00 and Samarra is passed out, face swollen up!!!!!!

OK, check this out.. the doctor says, she is fine, BUT if you cant wake her up in the morning take her strait to the ER............UMMMMMMMMMM WHAT THE??????? OH Yeah that is going to help me sleep!! So the night consisted of me looking at her like every 15 min to see if she was moving lolol She is fine... I tool a pic, but only the next day so it doesn't look near as bad.......Yes, i was a good mommie and didn't make her pose for a pic during the ordeal lololol

OK, Well I still have # 2 MELTDOWN to tell you about, but I need to get ready for work= ( So stay tuned for the next one........Reminded me of Max off the show "Parenthood" except that is a tv show and the show can only last so long.. lolol

We did manage to get in seeing the lights by our house as well and I took some pics of that too= )

OH and I am a bad mom for this...........I planned for Samarra to go to Nanna's for tonight! I need a break! I did not tell her or she would have got too excited, so they get to deal with letting her know her schedule is going to change......... I know it is wrong But funny kinda....lolol Besides she loves going over there!

Samarra and Siahna Christmas 2010  AWWWW

Samarra Christmas 2009 She looks so tiny! 
Me about to loose it.......although you cant tell...

Siahna's poor head= (
And now lights!!!
OK, is it just me or does it look like Santa is whippin someone in this picture???  lolololol

Siahna's favorite

My favorite= )

Samarra's favorite= )
Have a Great Friday !!!!!!!!!!


  1. It doesn't surprise me that Samarra's favorite Christmas display of lights is Santa sitting at the computer. It probably reminds her of her daddy, who she loves dearly. (smile)

  2. Oh......and YES, it DOES look like Santa is whipping someone. LOL