Aspergers Mommy

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Well I am a mom of two wonderful kids that I have been blessed with!!! I am not a psychiatrist, or a doctor so anything I say is not the answer to all, it might not even be the right thing for me!! lol I do my best with who and what I have to overcome any challenge with lots and lots of prayer,my mom who is God given just to me for this very reason, my sisters, and friends! I love life, mostly positive........BUT I am insane at times, get to the point of wanting to explode! lol.. I sing kids songs way too much! Did I mention I am OCD when it comes to cleaning. Which believe it or not I think is what keeps me sane. When I clean, I love it. Breakdowns, crying, talking, just all seem to be ok as I clean..Thank God for OCD!!!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Aspergers, Monday! My IQ is higher than yours. May 24, 2011

Well it is Monday morning and I woke up first.. This makes me want to do a happy dance.. but I am too tired! But I am doing it in my head!.. So why did I set my alarm the last three days of work to get up and get on the treadmill and wake up later than usual.........Will someone please do a medical study on this??..

Shower... check..... make-up... check..... Samarra's pills...........UM why is there only 1 left, how could that happen when you get an even amount of pills????? Oh geeze, ok... Order pills......check... If I haven't mentioned for one month these pills cost $380.00 a MONTH!!!! Thank you God for my job... Thank you God for insurance that will pay for part of it. I actually pay $110 a month.. high still but not near as high! If I had to pay for all of it.. I just might have to go to locking her up... lol NO.. I would never do that! lol

She is awake and I had breakfast ready and juice in a cup with a straw. Why am I so proud of myself at this moment? Guess i think I need kudo's or something lol

And it is time to wake up the baby, Samarra decided a breakfast burrito was suiting for the baby today... How did all the pillows and blankets get in the crib in less than 3 minutes??? uggg ok baby is up and I am changing her and getting her dressed and Samarra decides it is time to try and see if Siahna breaths through her nose when she is eating... here it is
Me: STOP! she cant breath
Her: But it is fun to see her choke.
Me: Samarra that is not nice to say and STOP.. I am trying to get a diaper on the baby as she is screaming at her sister and trying to hit her.. Diapers dont go on well like this...
Her:But if she doesnt breath while she eats then she might pass out and die.
Me:I know so STOP.
Her: It's fun...
Me: OK i give on the diaper... grab Samarra to get her away from the baby. Look at me..... Look at me.... Have I mentioned eye contact is almost impossible for her and when she does it is a stare... LOOK AT ME.. you are hurting your sister and making her upset.. that is not nice.. do you really want some thing to happen to her???
Her:Well NO, but it is so funny.......
Me: Thinking... OMGosh a serial killer.... I didn't say this...
Me: Samarra, I love you and you can not do this ok, help me and get sissy some water ok?
Her: OK.... As she is walking off.. When will lower IQ people realize that science experiments must be done to come to a resolution.
Me: Science experiment.. What kind of science experiment is making your sister not breath?
Her: Um, mom... If we don't know if she breaths through her nose when her mouth is closed, how are we to plan in the event she gets something stuck in her mouth. this was pre-planning
Me: That is not science, and lets leave the experiments to the scientists.
Her: Well I will be one one day.. you will see and I will change the world!
Me: I am sure you will one day.. and I will be proud.. but lets not change the world today ok??
Her: OK, need help finishing up... kisses her sister...... Siahna is so mad at her right now she punches Samarra in the eye... It hurt and she is crying........ I think I became a bad mom here.........See that's what you get. = ( sorry, I am not perfect.

And off to school..... and I am off to work...

I have to leave work to go get Samarra for therapy today... Guess what i didnt do.. get a snack.....

Metltdown.. cry, mad, cry, mad. cry... fine..

Therapy is an hour and the therapist reports that Samarra is being very defiant and not doing as she is told and doing what she wants to do, except she did brush her teeth very well........ OK. Two things are happening here. 1. Only 1 pill 2. Samarra has a program at school tonight she is in. She is too excited... It will be better next time.

OK, to pharmacy, to Taco Bueno, cause I don't have time to cook... home, baby, dishes, get Samarra dressed. all in thirty minutes...

OH GREAT bad weather, well we have to go now! I called Jalaine and asked her to be my weather lady for the evening.. Thanks Jalaine!! She is almost the ONLY other person who can handle Samarra for LONG periods of time! Why? cause she is just as crazy and she doesn't even have asperger's.. I love her!!!

Samarra: We have to go... lets go... come on lets go.. are we going now... Me: give me just a minute please... AHHH dang.... Her: all the way to 60.... Now, lets go.. come on lets go.. we have to go...are we going now.. Me: Just a second.. What the... Why did i do it again... Her: 1 .... Ok lets go... Finally we are ready...

Program starts... she did wonderful, the whole school did awesome! I am going to try and get some video of it on here. Imagine a old up=beat church chior who dances moves and just has fun with songs.. that was it... CUTE CUTE! I will post a picture, but it doesn't tell much...

Home and we survived the storms so far... Yay it is time for bed... I am tired! baby asleep, Samarra gets to stay up till 10.... She thinks she is special... She is.. I love my aspie child... God gave her to me perfect.

THUNDER UP.. I finally get to watch some of the game!!!

Another asperger note..... She has no given social skills she has to learn them and copies everything to try and learn anything... I remind her constantly that TV is FAKE.. but she still .picks it up... poor baby.. I really need to get her in a social group.. Yes, I haven't done it yet... But Is it so bad I just wanted peace and gave in... probably, yes... But I don't care at the moment.= )

I am going against all that has been told to me and I let her watch ICarly if she is around you tomorrow expect her to act like it...

Not so bad really.. another one survived...

OK, picture is so fuzzy.. but here it is anyway= )

OH!!!!!!!!!!!  I came up with a awesome Memorial day list of events.. check them out.. they go all over our wonderful State of Oklahoma!

Have a great Tuesday!!!

1 comment:

  1. I love you all too! Samarra and I get along fine because we see a lot of things the same way. The world would be a better place if people would just go things when they said they would and how and when we wanted. We also know that things like loud noises, buttons and storms are bad bad things that should not even exist.